...is accepting things...opening my heart to the reality of losing you...messages are no longer read/seen...i tried calling you....but its no longer connecting....we are no longer talking...i sent some emails but there was no reply....the silence is very painful....
i still care about you...i still think of you...i still miss you....and i am forcing...teaching myself...not to feel that way....but its not an overnight thing...and it makes me wonder.....
how come it was so easy for you to just ignore me...to forget me...to forget us...you've moved on so easily...
you were my world...you were my one great love... and i am supposed to move on now like a chapter has ended...but you were not just a chapter....you were the whole story that i wanted....
i am learning to accept...to let go...so painful... so heartbreaking.. so draining....but i don't have a choice...i no longer want to beg...i do not want to ask anymore....maybe your silence is the closure that i needed... .maybe you prefer it that way....
so ironic...because we are now both in one place...in the same time zone....but we are more distant than before....we are sharing the same sky...might be looking at the bright lights outside our windows...we are so near and yet so far from each other...
please take care of yourself...i am always praying that you are safe...eating your meals on time and not starving yourself.. and you are always taking your vitamins...using your umbrella and sunscreen when you go out...i will always pray for you...for your happiness.. for the one that you truly deserve...someone who will love you the way you want to be loved.....someone who will take care of you...and make you happy...someone that your family can accept....i am also praying for healing for both of us....
a part of you will always stay with me...i leave everything in God's hands....He knows what's best for both of us...te quiero....
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