God, You know my heart. I am trying to be okay because I need to be okay but I know You can see the every day struggles, I still can't understand why I ended up like this when all I wanted is to love and be loved. Its been months now actually nearing a year and I am thankful for Your unending mercy and provisions. I thank you for the people that you have used to make things a bit easier for me here in Dubai. I am terribly missing my family and I am praying that I would be able to be with them the soonest.
God, help me to let go, freely, wisely. If its really not meant for me to have it, please remove all the desire--to call her, to see her, to talk to her---please remove all of these in my heart and help me find peace in its absence. Please teach me to continually accept the reality and trust Your timing, even when I don't seem to understand it at the moment. Please replace this terrible ache with peace and the false hopes with rest. Help me to let go completely without holding back, without bitterness, without regrets and help me move forward without looking back and without hesitation.
God if its not for me...please let me be okay without it......Amen