some updates.....

I had my eye check-up today and I am happy that the infected left eye corneal abrasion is almost healed. Unfortunately, I still can't wear contact lenses for at least one more month. I will also continue my medication and the use of the eye drops so my eyes won't get dry. I was also advised not to rub my eyes if in case it gets itchy. Thank you to the doctors at UCSF Valley Center for Vision for the medical assistance. 

Downside....the clinic's parking lot is closed for construction so I had to be dropped off to a certain area and then walk towards the clinic. I also need to go back to the drop off point and wait for the driver to pick me up.....

I got really hungry after the check-up and I had this for "meal compliance"

Next stop is the "nerve clinic" for the continuous monitoring and treatment of my cramps and neuropathy. Another session of exhausting "neuromodulation", medical advice and updates on my condition. 

I am still not allowed to do heavy work-outs like lifting weights and use of gym machines that would require me to exert so much effort to operate. I was told to be patient as full recovery from TBI would really take time. I am progressing well with minor setbacks and that's good news for me.

Unfortunately, my heart is not that happy as I was not able to sleep with my love, night time during her time zone, as I need to prepare for my clinic visits. I also need to buy medicines and some personal stuffs. 

I am praying that things will be better for us. She said she's already very tired and it breaks my heart to know that I am the one causing it. I only want her to be happy, to be safe, to be secured in this relationship. 

Maybe I was not meant to be loved. Maybe she's right, that she does not deserve someone like me. 

I've been receiving really bad messages lately---foul accusations, calling me bad names, insulting my identity, cursing me------good thing most of it are in Tagalog that I could not fully comprehend...i just hope that these people or this person would stop doing this, he/she is wasting his/her resources. And I am just so touched that he/she is investing so much time on me. Ha ha ha 

So Nini, my inquisitive niece, was the first one to see me when I arrive home and asked me, "Tio when will you cut your hair?" "You don't like it" I asked. "No, you look gay". Ha ha ha

Now, I'm just here in the bath tub, half of my body is soaked in this bubbly liquid that smells like mint,  typing in my macbook, wishing that she's with me, enjoying the dim light, imagining her body pressed against mine, as time drifts, just the two of us, unmindful of the nosy, cruel world. 

I long for you, I miss you, I love you, I crave for you..........Reynalyn

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