sleepless...

My mom had several episodes of anxiety attacks and I had to watch over her. I have been sleeping on and off since yesterday. No, I am not complaining. I love my Mommy and would do anything for her. 

I miss sleeping with my love. To be honest I sleep better when I am with her. Despite the crazy time zone I believe we are able to sleep in both zones and I am thankful for those times. There is a certain joy within my heart knowing that she's there on the other line and we are sleeping together regardless of whether its day or night in our respective time zones. I am earnestly praying that in God's perfect time we would be able to sleep together physically in the same time zone. 

I know we are battling so many things and I am scared that she would eventually drift away from me. I really don't know if I can handle that. Just the thought of it makes me cry. I can't live without her. She's the only woman that I have prayed and desired for myself. 

And so my sister in law arrived and told me to rest as she will watch over Mom...its been like 2 hours that I am trying to sleep but I can't...so i guess it is time to take this...hopefully I would be able to sleep..