.......that I was able to sleep with you again, virtually.
For a time I thought It will no longer happen...but I earnestly prayed for it...I have been sleepless for days.,,,,,.unable to even have a restful one without you...
When I saw your missed call...I took it as a cue that I can already call you....and even if its weird...because we are not talking...I was talking....you are not replying to my questions...I still stayed and endured the silence for more than 5 hours...I can hear sounds from your end...and from time to time I can hear you...and for someone...dying to be with you....the thought that you are on the other line...is better...than not being with you at all...I want to believe that you are sleeping....and I am sleeping....I think you heard me snoring....
And then again...today....we were able to virtually sleep together....and for a time I was telling you...I love you and I miss being with you...I just don't know if you heard it....but when the call ended....we tried calling each other but the call would registered as "missed" even if I answered it...or the call will dropped or end after it was answered by either of us....
Then you said..."its not working anymore. lets just stop. rest well"....I want to think that you are referring to the calls and not with whatever level of relationship we have now....
I don't know If you heard me crying on the other line....but I was...and I am right now....I terribly miss being with you...I am back at my closet....curled and cold....
Oh GOD! this obsession...this love...this longing...I don't know how I can contain it...
Please be with me again....my love
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